-Imagine viewing the ocean from the shore. The immensity of the horizon ovewhelming you're vision. You stare at the water and you wonder. You wonder what the hell is under the surface. You wonder at the forces causing the water to swell and move. You feel insignificant next to the water. You feel that your whole life could never measure up to the importance of such an entity. And then you glance behind you. You see where you came from. You recognize the familiarity and comfort of the past. You see dark dark spots. You see incredibly bright spots. You see things you should have done and things you did.

You return you're gaze to the sea and begin to doubt the greatness of it. You see the surface and now its calm, unchanging and ominously smooth. Then you realize beneath the surface there is motion, movement, possiblities. Try as you might you cannot figure how to breach that surface. You try to move towards the calm ocean. You are stuck. Confused, you search for your captor. Nothing to your left, to the right, above, below. But behind you is different. You see nothing but you feel something. Something you should have surrendered to a long time ago. Something you thought you buried long long ago so deep and so so secretly that you were sure it would never see light again. But there it is, moving slowly and purposely towards you. So you turn around and pretend you didn't see what was coming. You ignore and deny, deny and ignore. You cannot ignore this away. You can not deny its existance. Everyday it moves closer. And you aren't even sure if this thing is bad. You begin to think maybe you want this thing. And then you look back to the sea. Lost.

-Right so right now I'm pretty pissed off. I got online to play some FFXI and low and behold no one would let me in their party because I'm only level 19. I was on for like 45 minutes looking and nothing. So far that is only the second bad experience I've had with FFXI.

The first has to do with a guy I let into our linkshell. Hes a dick, plain and simple. Hes selfish, full of himself, and just not cool. Last night we invited him to play in our party, and because we weren't quick enough in coming to pick him up he found another party. I could cite a few other things he has done to back up my claim that he isn't cool, but that was just the last straw for me. I mean he did quit that other party after everyone was like "COME ON THATS NOT COOL!", but he did so saying "ARGHHH alright (sigh)." So, in response, as I was logging out of the game I kicked him out of the linkshell. I didn't give him an explaination because I didn't think he deserved one. And I find out tonight he was let back in. I know it wasn't cool of me to kick him without talking to him; that was the point. I suppose I should have polled more people about this because now I look like a retard and a jerk for kicking someone and then they get right back in. Makes me seem like a fucking 14 year old kid. But whatever, its just a damn game and it shouldn't piss me off. I realize that after I kicked him all his anger would be centered on whoever was left online. I apologize about that. If he was like Elktron all of this would be nothing. Now talking on the linkshell is going to be weird for me. But I don't expect that to really affect anyone since I seem to be alone on this issue. Well I'm going to go brood somewhere and wait for someone to make a response about this.

-HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I got FFXI and its a blast. I was skeptical before but I'm not anymore. How could I be? I'm a level 8 Galka warrior and I can solo pretty well. I'm also really impressed with playonline. I love sending messages while I'm healing. Its cool though, I only ever play for like 2 hours at a time so its not consuming my life. Also, I'm looking forward to playing in a party, we're going to need to pretty soon guys so we can travel places and kill harder stuff. Alright, back to business.

-Just returned home from a marathon session of working. Which naturally is stupid because we all know we should get paid for doing nothing. How backwards the world can be sometimes. Which is why we of course search for escapes from reality. Alcohol, for one, does a superb job of helping one "escape" reality. But thats not what I'm talking about. I'm talking games. Games like FFXI. I know it seems like Joe and I can't stop talking about FFXI. We can. I promise. Its just what is chiefly on our minds right now. Its sucks waiting for the release too. I mean its like waiting for Christmas morning when you were eight. Its soooo hard. You have trouble sleeping the night before. Energy flows in your viens as it rarely does because adrenaline is being released even thinking about it. Damn that sounds really sad, but not as sad as this video Joe sent me of guys pretending to be characters from Ogre Battle. This one guy says "LIGHTENING BOLT, LIGHTENING BOLT,...." over and over again until his friend dressed up as an "Orge" "dies". Seriously I want to make those people dead.

I'm officially not working at Starworld anymore, however, I will still be seeing free movies. Which is of course excellent. I suppose that will do. Its still really shitty they would fire me for the reasons they did after working there for three years. I understand thats how it is almost everywhere in America. Screw that. I can only hope an isanely high amount of partying in Norman next semester can assuage my woes on this subject. If you're confused see my earlier comment about ALCOHOL. One last thing though. I'm sooo down with Slayer. For some reason I've started liking some heavy metal, they just rock so hardcore. That is if you ignore the lyrics on most songs. Yay! posting is good.

-I have taken my first and hopefully safe step into OVERCLOCKING. Thats right, the taboo subject of raising your computers CPU speed without buying a new processor. I was afraid my friends, afraid. At first I was like "Nah, its too much to risk.", but then curiosity got the best of me. I mean is a human capable of not pressing that proverbial "red button". So, I went to my bios, poked around and decided that the safest way of doing this was to change the multiplier on my CPU. I changed it to "15" from "7/14". This resulted in a 1 GHZ drop in performance recognizing my XP 2400+ as an XP 1000. Bah! I exclaimed and went back to the bios. Once there I changed the multiplier to "8/16". Bingo! It recognized the 2400+ as a 2800+ running at 2.14 GHZ. After running the FFXI bench and getting a higher score and running some other games and noticing performance enhancement I figured that I was ok. I've also been monitoring my CPU temp and testing it over periods of time. On my 2400+ I ran idle temps around 32 degrees C and peaked at a full load around 42. On my new set up I idle around 38 and peak around 52 with a mean temp around 43. I think thats pretty good but I'm no expert. I haven't really found something telling me what an ideal temp is. I read an article saying 80 deg C is the max CPU's can take so yeah. However, pending the continued stability and coolness of my set-up I will likely keep this overclocked setting.

On a slightly less good note, Nick was impressed with my performance increase and wanted me to help him overclock his XP 1800+. Bad idea. I instructed him over the phone how to up his multiplier. He did it and we got the dreaded black screen. I could tell he was freaked and so was I. I didn't want to be responsible for breaking his computer. Lukily he was able to locate and reset his bios (cmos?) jumper. His computer works now thank God and I only hope no damage was done. I shouldn't have tried to help him overclock. It was a bad idea period. Not only am I not familiar with his bios, I don't know how well his hardware handles overclocking. Sorry Nick, my bad. I just get excited sometimes. I'll keep you all updated on my forays into this "scary" subject. Hurry up next week, I need me some FFXI.

-Well it seems that I have been let go. That's right, I was fired from Starworld. I won't go into extreme detail as to why I was fired. If you want the full story ask me in person. Otherwise suffice to say that it was a bullshit reason. I'm sure whatever story the management got was a false one, as I was given no chance to explain anything or even asked questions regarding the matter. I wish I didn't lose that job, I liked the $70 paychecks every two weeks for two nights of work. The more I think about how shitty it was that they fired me the more angry I get. But this is something I need to let go. I was going to quit in December anyways. I need to tell myself this wasn't important. I do have another job. Fuck this shit. I'll still get free movies right? But its just the fucking principle. Fuck Starworld and Dickinson Theaters.

I can't wait for FFXI though. I'm going to be real pissed if I don't get it the day it comes out. If I regret NOT ordering it online I'll regret it. Yeah. I will. It is also of my own high opinion that a THIEF will most likely be my starting job of choice. Thats right my friends, a Galka thief. Named Pie. Genius if you ask me. But then again I am most likely attempting to compensate for my overall shitty feeling of BEING FIRED. FUCK THAT!

-I know this will seem an awful lot like I'm copying off Erik, buuuuuut......well I am. They say the highest form of flattery is imitation.

8:00-Alarm makes sounds
8:00:36-Press "Snooze"
8:09-Alarm insists on more sounds
8:09:12-Mash top of alarm clock resulting in "Sleep" being pressed
8:10-"GRRRROOOAAAN" (persistant noise)
8:11-Disable "Sleep"
8:11:15-Slumber regained
Time Warp
9:10-LATE FOR SCHOOL AGAIN!
11:45-Out of school early, thanks Nick's Aunt
12:32-Arrive home full of Bueno
12:44-Play FFTA until sleepy
2:00-Begin napping
Time Warp
3:30-Wake up from delicious nap
3:52-Begin wasting time
5:00-Time successfully wasted; go for run
5:34-Back from run and feelin phine
5:58-Leave to get Joe for work
6:10-Arrive to work late; not suprised
Time Warp
10:05-Watch KILL BILL
12:00-KILL BILL watched
12:35-Take Joe and I home
1:18-Typing.

Yeah that was my day. The abridged version of course. Sign up for that ACT Joe Walker.

-Man I need to get my shit together. I'm doing less than good in my political science class at TCC. Yes, one might say, "You're doing poorly in a TCC class!?"; And I might respond, "Yes.", but I submit that that TCC is not made up ENTIRELY of blow-off easy classes. In fact, I had an easier time with Psychology at OSU than I am having now with Political Science at TCC. However, in all truth, the class really isn't THAT diffucult. I've just been giving that class the ole "psssh!" which I know now is a contraintelligent decision. I just need to actually read the chapters instead of assuming I've read the chapters, because that assumption simply has no basis in reality. It does make me feel better. Like I'm a good student. Until I get a test back. Yeah.

Completely unrelated to above paragraph; Mondays are cool. I don't work on Mondays. I usually end up going out to eat with Ashley, go to a book store, drink coffee, read cool magazines, hang out more with Ash and then just hit the sack. In fact I ran into Erik at Barnes and Noble yesterday (being Monday). He was buying a book about superchargers I believe. I was buying Ashley a 6 CD set on learning Japanese. She swears shes going to pay me back. Man I hope so. Anyways, I thought that might be interesting but I was wrong. I'm sorry I posted this. Please disregard my lack of intrigue. Thank YOU.

-it is quite rare that i ever go and see a movie i know absolutely nothing about. it is even more rare that i know nothing about a movie because i work in a movie theater. but i tell you truthfully i knew NOTHING about Kill Bill before i saw it. im not a tarantino fan. i dont worship pulp fiction. in fact i think ive only seen various parts of that movie. bottom line though; i loved this movie. i wasn't because of who i saw the movie with. it wasn't because that was the consensus of those who watched it. it was because i purely and simply enjoyed it. i need japanese steel.

-Seriously, its freakin annoying tryin to update this site all in raw html. Not only does it look shitty, it looks shitty. And its annoying. Did I say that already? Which brings up an interesting point. Would someone tutor me or even "set-up" a moveabletype thing for me. I would perfer tutelage since I like to learn about things like web languages and what not, but if thats not possible I could deal with a set up. If you could and are willing to help me out, drop me an IM at witeshd0w. the 0 is a zero. duh.

-I find myself lately being drawn more and more into watching anime. Like really I enjoy it. I watched Evangelion or the end of it or something. Thats cool right? But today whilst browsing Cockbuster I was drawn to Escoflowne (I know I misspelled it) and Steel Angel Kurumi. There was some other stuff too but I don't remember its name. Next time theres a LAN I hope I can watch some with you LANites.

-Speaking of, I hope to be more "involved" in LANs now that I've got a computer in a box. Cause like before I'd only show up for a little while on weekends and hang-out and be mostly a visitor. I felt like a moocher. OK well my brain just hit the wall and I feel like what I'm writing is total crap. I'm out for now.

-Got the comp up and running and I must say its working very smoothly. I bought a monitor yesterday. I'm a bit skeptical about this monitor. First off its a Viewsonic. I think they're a reputable maker of monitors, *I think.
Good Things: Good Dot Pitch. Two Viewing Modes:Bright for gaming, and Normal for normal things. 17" 16 viewable.
Bad Things: 150 dollar price tag. 1280 x 1024 max resolution at 60HZ.

There was another monitor at CompUSA that was 50 bucks cheaper the same size but of some lesser well known brand. I'm wondering if I should take this one back. Whoa....Scratch that. Just got home from work and as of now it is officially 12:47 in the AM. Three Words. School Of Rock. Very great movie. I give it two hearty thumbs up. On that note, I'm loving life right now. Everyone should love life too. Theres too little that we have here to not enjoy life. Seriously, if your depressed, get over it. Its not worth it whatever it is. I wouldn't have said that a year ago but much has changed indeed. So go out, have a cookie, and do something you enjoy, whatever it is cause one day you won't be able to do it. I got nothing but love for all yous people reading this. And for those who don't, I hope you die. JK that wouldn't be cool.

-Right so I'm just sitting here eating pie, and I must say pie is grand. It can make the worst of days good and delicious. Which is why I've decided to name my FFXI character Pie. You see I'm uncommonly horrible at coming up with any sort name for anything. So I've settled on Pie. Its not terribly creative but I think it gets the job done. Also, I'll probably change my mind between now and the release so that part of the post is pretty much useless. Anyways, the title of this post is supposed to mimic Nick's most recent post because his was also "Oops". Mine is just a later version of "Oops". Make sense? My mistake however has to do with computer hardware. First off, as I'm looking at my recipt of purchase I notice that the IDE round cable I purchased are 36' long. Thats like 3 feet. Yeah "SHIT!?" is right. Oops. JP also pointed out that I failed to realize that faster Intel MOBO's and processors are available and a comparable price to slower AMD's. I slapped my forehead at this with an obvious Duh! I can't explain exactly why I didn't look into a hyper-threading processors like JP's or even just a faster Intel set.

You see I have this horrible stigma about Intel. I have in my home 3 computers, all different. My fathers is a Pentium III and "the upstairs" computer is an AMD K6. My laptop, which is awesome, is also a Pentium but a IV. Anyways, the AMD K6 is only 333 MHZ and the Pentium III is around 800. Simply put, the "slower" AMD has always kicked the pants off of the "faster" Pentium. I took this as a sure sign the AMD's were consistently supreme, no matter what the clock speed. I now realize that I'm talkin bout last generation technology that is no longer relevant in my considerations. In fact at this very moment I'm utilizing a 1.6 GHZ Pentium 4 which has always functioned beautifully. What I'm trying to say here is "Opps, I shoulda thought of that!". Oh well, I'm going to make the best of my set-up and probably ugrade in a year. So if you're going to need a slightly used Athlon XP 2400+ in about a year give me a call. Again, I'm only human.

-And I say that in the most ominous fashion possible. I worked four long shifts this last weekend at the Red Robin and completed my goal. I made enough money to make my second purchase of computer parts for my new computer. Perhaps by this weekend my new comp will be up and running. I will say its always a bit unnerving when you spend any sum of money over 200 dollars at once, especially when it leaves your checking account with a mere $1.50 balance. Luckily I'll get my "paycheck" from Red Robin on Friday, so its not so bad. Anyways, would you like some specs on my new machine? I knew you would.

-Antec Mini-Tower w/ 300 watt PS
-ASUS A7N8x-X MOBO
-Athlon XP 2400+ 2.0G Processor "Throughbred"
-ATI Radeon 9600 Pro 128MB
-512 DDR 2700
-Western Digital 80G 7200RPM 8MB cache "Special Edition" HD
-ASUS 52x CDRW
-ASUS 52x CD-ROM
-Nec Floppy
-Round Cables and all that jazz

Why not a new "Barton" core processor you say? Well for my price range the best Barton I could get was a 1.83GHZ version. So I decided to go with the "old skool" Throughbred core. Yeah I know it's got a slower front side bus. Its only a 233MHZ FSB which is even slower than the next step in Throughbred cores but I did some research via Anandtech and Toms Hardware Guide and discovered that the processor I was considering was a good buy and had a very small performance difference than that of a Throughbred with a higher FSB AND clock speed. Anyways, I also decided on an ATI GPU as opposed to an nVidia. After researching like mad I decided that the 9600 Pro was the best buy for my limited resources. Besides according to Anandtech it will run Half-Life 2 wonderfully not to mention a plethora of other games. Until nVidia catchs up I'm a converted ATI boy. Needless to say I'll buy another 512 2700 stick of RAM soon enough. My MOBO supports DDR 3200 but from what I've read 3200 offers no real performance increase over 2700. Oh and I can have up to 3 gigs of RAM if I wish. I don't know if thats impressive but I was like wow! Ok I'm done braggin. I'm sure at least a few of you could even put me to shame with your current set-ups. If you want to heckle me about it catch me on AIM.

-Everyone needs to level up in all other aspects of their lives from this point until FFXI comes out, because after FFXI comes out there will be no more room for leveling outside of the game. Nick has already started so I suggest you catch up. In fact I just reached LEVEL 4 in my computer construction skill. I think level 20 in school should be enough to carry you even if you play the game obsessively. Unless you are Joe Walker and then you don't have to level in school at all. Anyways. Norman was tight this past weekend. Let me just say thank you to all who provided us a place to rest our bones and to all the others that made it so enjoyable. Unfortunately I came home with a cold. Luckily it pretty much only lasted one day so I'm much better today. If you got a problem I'll punch your face. In the words of Rocky as he awoke Sunday morn "ughhhh-mnnnnnnuhgh-mnnn".

-I ask you my dear fellows what you are looking forward to the most, Final Fantasy XI or World of Warcraft? I know FFXI is coming out sooner but does that make it better? I know it's near sacriledge to say that another game could possibly be better than a Final Fantasy game, especially if the both of the games are in the same genre. I've played FFXI and it's very good. It's very good and I've only played the pretty much bare-bones beta for a few hours. But have you seen WOW? Have you read about all the races that are playable? Undead, troll, gnome, dwarf, orc, and so on. Have you seen the enviroments or read about the game play? Granted there is no beta yet so all the talk on the game play is coming from Blizzard or a few who have been invited to play the latest build of the game. Even so something about the uber-outstanding quality and overall feel of any of Blizzards games gets me all warm inside. Am I wrong in stating that Blizzard has almost an equal status as a game maker as Square/Square-Enix? I think not. Bottom line: In my own humble opinion I forsee World of Warcraft as being the better MMORPG. Whilst Final Fantasy XI will certainly be worthy of praise I see WOW being worthy of worship. Blizzard just has more experience with online things thanks to Battle.net. Combine that experience with what looks to be and excellent game on its own and I see holy things. Beta is supposed to start in Q4 of this year.(November, December, January) Rest assured I'll be checking Blizzard.com twice a day until such a beta opens up. I hope I get in.

-I like doing nothing. It just feels right. Aside from nothing, I've been doing things. Things such as working. This week I'm only working 3 shifts so I'm not so busy. Well I am busy, just not busy with anyTHING. Got it? Ashley went to school today to learn how to cook me things that might or might not be French. Oh my mistake "Freedom". Regardless of the foods' country of origin, Ashley going back to school is good. She'll learn things and perhaps one day rival me with her genius. Or just whip up really tasty treats. Yum. Which reminds me, Nick, you have incredibly too much free stuff. And you wonder why you computer is broken? I submit that Satan himself has come to exact some sort of payment for your less than clandestine manner of "purchasing" things. You see it's not a matter of faulty electronics components or poorly crafted wiring. Its a matter of divine (albeit evil) debt collecting. After Lucifer conducted a rather extensive cost-benefit analysis of what would inconvience one Nick Uber the most he decided your comptroller would most cetainly be a prime target. So he sent out a few imps of varying sizes and destructive specialties to maim your PC into broken. You cant win. You just simply cannot win.

-Hooray for JP! He rocked the house and e-mailed me back explaining how to update my site. And I got Disgaea: Hour of Darkness, which I think is quite entertaining. I know anyone whos a fan of silly-assed anime or cool- assed anime will find the humor in the story supremely enjoyable. As for the play style, its a lot like FFTactics. Not nearly as a good system as Tactics' but its still enjoyable. The more innovative features come with such things as the ITEM WORLD and THE DARK ASSEMBLY. The Item World is a bit overwhelming actually. Each item in the game has its own "world" with levels where tons of baddies lurk; and the more levels you beat the more levels the item gains. And this works for EVERY item, even consumables. I'm not sure if there is a cap for item levels but I'm going to guess its around 100. I think the level cap for characters is something like 1000 so there you go. As for the Dark Assembly, it happens to be a Congress of demons which you try to persuede whether by bribes or by force to vote for a motion to pass which will somehow benefit you. Like you can try to get them to vote for raising more military funds but good luck. They hate stuff that costs them money. I could go on much longer about the game but I just suggest you rent it. (ahem, Nick) OK I'm out of thoughts. (which is sad)

-Alright I'm pissed. I went to Gamestop today and they didn't have Disgaea in which was supposed to be released today. The guy (who by the way acted like a jerk ass) said it wasn't due out until wednesday. Bah! and I was pumped too. Ah well. Well it's been like 4 months since I updated. I didn't feel a need to update during the summer because everyone I knew was here and pretty much in touch. I guess I sorta use these blog things to keep tabs on my homies who also keep blogs. So since everyone went back to school I decided its time to update again. Well TCC is going fine. Its good and easy and thats how I like it. Trent and Munkie are here so I'm not really ever bored. I also work 5 days a week so I stay pretty busy. This semester I'm gonna save money so I can go to OU next semester and not have to work if I dont want to. Yeah well I'm at a loss for thought except for the fact that in Nick's Aunt's class there is this girl whos like learning disabled whom Nick's Aunt loses her patience with like everyday. It's funny. Also munkie and I have a teacher who has been dubbed "Colonel Nipples" cause he looks like the Colonel from KFC and wears shirts where his nipples show through. Ewww!

-It has most certainally been about a month since I last updated my 'blog'. To tell the truth I've been on my computer very little lately. These things seem to ebb and flow. One month I'll be on the internet all the time, and another month I'll scarcely be on at all. I attribute my lack of being online to three things. First of all, Hailee spends a whole lot of time here. Secondly, I got the Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker and I've played that the whole way through. (see my impressions below) And last but definitely nerdiest; I got back into reading Star Wars books. As some, if not all of you know, about four years back I had read every Star Wars book ever published. After that I sorta lost my motivation to read Star Wars as I was preoccupied with the Harry Potter series and rereading The LOTR. However, about a year ago I got back into the Star Wars "universe" when the line of "New Jedi Order" books began hitting the shelves. I think I read about four of the books starting the series and then sorta forgot about them. Now there are something like 17 books alone in the "New Jedi Order" series, not to mention a few new other books written outside the series. Anyways, these books are really really good. Not only does a near unstoppable race of Force void aliens begin taking over the galaxy, but this series also takes the bold move of killing off a few main characters. I'm addicted, really I am. I bought a book on Tuesday around two o'clock and finished it by midnight. Not that this volume was very long (around 320 pages) but I would say that's pretty "dedicated". Oh well, just one of my many passions.

-Now on to Zelda. I love(d) the game, but I still have some criticisms. I also will say I'm not going to sit here and sing it's praises because I believe it does that for itself; so if I sound like I hate it, I don't. Anyways my problems are few. First problem: I think there should have been more dungeons. I misquoted to Joe Walker that there were only three dungeons, in my mind there are actually 5 and 3/4 dungeons. Why the '3/4'? Because I didn't really get the traditional Zelda dungeon feel from the Forsaken Fortress or the End Fortress. I love change, and I didn't say I didn't enjoy these places, but I just wish they had constructed more dungeons, harder dungeons. OOT had something like ELEVEN dungeons, one of which was crazy hard. They could of atleast matched that. Secondly, going places in the boat got annoying. At first it was ok but after a good ten minutes of boating around with nothing to do I got tired. Warping helps, but two minutes between islands with usually nothing to do irked me sometimes. Finally, most of the bosses were too easy. Unless I've just gotten insanely better at Zelda games, I hardly ever died. Maybe it's because I'm older but I hope not. Well, that is what I think. In over all gaming experience I put OOT over WW but in the area of visuals or smoothness I think you know who wins. Yet, I still loved the game.

-I do love me some raw HTML! Yes I do. However, I have nothing but more good things to say about Dark Cloud 2. It's hard, but not too hard. It's cheesy, but not too chessy. ANNNNNND the georama system does not suck. What you do in the present affects the future. So building a certain number of "lakes" in the present will affect the game in the future. It's a lot like SimCity actually; except for the time element. How do you get to the future you ask. Gates. Time gates. Much like Chrono Trigger. All in all I have played around 6 hours now and I just got the second main character AND I'm only at the second "level". This game is good, it gets my approval and it's hard to impress me with RPG's. If you have money buy it. One other thing, I fixed Munkies computer finally it works just fine and everything is badassed. And I got some of my Pocky. And I'm going now.

-Well I bought Dark Cloud 2. I couldn't resist, I had 100 semolians to Best Buy, and Dark Cloud 2 sparked my interest. It was not ill gotten, let me tell you. I've played for about 3 hours into the game. Granted I'm probably lollie-gagging but I'm having fun. The graphics in this game are phenomenal; they seem cell shaded but they aren't. Did I mention the graphics are also smooth, clean, and bright? Very eye pleasing. Now for the game play. I was skeptical of how the game play was going to pan out in this game because of its predecessor (which I didn't really enjoy). I must say SO FAR I am impressed. The menu system is easy to use. Fighting and using items in battle is also done well. But what I am most impressed with is the weapon upgrade system. I won't explain the system right now because it would take up too much time, but the system really is sorta fresh. Imagine the weapons themselves as characters and imagine adding items to the weapons much like Final Fantasy 8 (but hella easier) to make them stronger. AND you can chose the "path" your weapon takes. Go for pure physical attack or a more balanced physical mixed with a dash of magical attack. Here at Dark Cloud 2 we make it your way. Its cool though. Also, as you may or may not remember, the original Dark Cloud was quite well known for its "Georama" system which also was well known for licking tender balls. Okay so it was sorta cool that you could build a town with items you found in a dungeon but no. Now the packaging of the game boasts that there is a "improved Georama system". I am happy to report I haven't even encountered the Georama system yet. I take that as a good sign that this games main focus is NOT the Georama system. Yay! Ah! on to the invention system. Its frustrating. I havn't invented jack since the first invention which is spelled out for you. It seems simple enough. Take pictures, put three pictures together, make invention. But NOTHING goes together. Nothing. But remember, I've only played about three hours into it. Oh yeah, the story is much better. Woot! Dark Clouds story was crappy, this is so much better, with good voice acting to boot! Ok well I am done, hopfully someone is reading this, if not I dont blame them. I havn't really been too regular with my updates. Maybe I'll get better.

-Yeah so is Sunday the weekend or week begginning? I wish I knew. Ok so this weekend was pretty cool. I got to chill with Joe Walker which is always a treat. Oh yeah, Nick and Rocky and Trent were there too. Pshhhh. What did I do? Not much at all, in fact the sheer volume of "not much" I did was mind numbing. Daytimes I like did stuff I think. Night always capped the day off better, friends are great when its dark. Well I am incredibly tired and unmotivated to write anymore. Have a good time.

-Lets pick up where I left off... I am home now, much to my great relief. Home is a good place to be. OSU was strangling me, however, I did have more time to think there; or work on web logs or "blogs" if you will. So whats happened since last post? I turned nineteen, God's incarnation as a human was celebrated, WinterWonderLAN, New Years, two friends birthdays, lost a friend, not much. So I go to TCC now. Go ahead, laugh, really its ok. Even I laugh, for the diffuculty at TCC IS laughable. Ever like uhh sat through something and like left feeling sleepier? Yeah just like high school! Well thats TCC, the thirteenth grade. But it is a good change of pace. I like college life, just not the way it was.

-I guess now is a good time to tell you that I will be changing this site yet again. Especially now that I can update and "all that jazz." I promise that I will learn CSS and possibly MOVEABLETYPE. I don't know, Nick makes a good point that of the three (?) pages on this network that utilize moveabletype sorta feel the same. I'm hoping that changes when Rocky unveils his newly revamped site. Not that it is anyone's fault they look so similiar, its probably just because they all learned together. Like minds, like trends so to speak. Not concerned at the moment but if I learn moveabletype I will be different. Ok ok I know, everyone says that. Cut me some slack. G'night.

-Yes. I HAVE been thinking again. Things are changing...again. I'm moving again. See the trend? This time back to Tulsa. I'm gonna go to TCC and live at home for one semester. Then I am gonna....well..I'm not so sure. I could go to TU and still live at home. OR I could go to OU and live with my friends. Then, however, I would be away from my girlfriend, and I'm not so sure that would be much fun. I would miss her. I need to THINK more about that. On a slightly more cheery hand. I'm done with school tomorrow. I get to go home and stay there and do nothing. FOR A MONTH. Woot! LAN parties, hanging with homies, getting presents. T'aint nothing better, I tell you what. Oh yes. I too love coffee, like Rocky. If you looked at my archives you will see I have posted about that before.

-TV. TV is like a friend that is costantly giving you things. Like pleasure. Just less sexual. Or not? TV is a veritable orgy of optical stimulation. From the smooth satisfaction of Samurai Jack to the harsh ugliness of the nightly news. This friend is unselfish and uninhibited. If you ask of it, it will shut up. If you are displeased with its appearance, it will change. If it is too loud, it will quiet. And if you are ever faithful, you will be rewarded. Strength will build in your limbs and your spirit will wax mighty. Fire will burn in your heart and your eyes will shine with a light that men will shy from. Tall and terrible you shall be. But do not awe too much in yourself. You did not recieve this strength through arrogance and boasting. This came from being ever faithful to someone that is ever faithful to you. Yes young one, your time shall come. Take heart. And look to the sky and sea. For in them you shall find comfort.

-But seriously. The sight and sound of great bodies of water is awe striking, not to mention calming. So is the sky, particularly the night sky. It is my opinion that Tolkien dictates this love for the sea and sky in the utmost eloquent way. Read the Simarillion. You will never be so moved by a description of a human feeling in your life. You know those times when you feel righteous; where your heart seems to be swelling in your chest; "Let them come!" your heart screams. Times when you feel like doing battle. Like some ancient blood of some great warrior runs in your veins, and it is struggling for a chance to prove itself. Its like that. But these times pass, and you diminish once again into a normal mortal man. After all, where does our generation have a place to prove itself? We have fought no great battles. We have struggled through no Great Depression. Is our battlefield the job market? Have our lives been so dishonored that we value money and status over each other? There is no honor, no glory left. Think on these things for they have just come to my mind. HAHA but laugh, and be jovial. Do not despair at the ugliness of this world. Optimism may not be as safe as being realistic, but a good balance of both is excellent. (Terribly sorry about all of that. A fit took me and I just had to keep writing.)

-It's one huge icy realm here in good ole Stillwater. It actually sucks because a bunch of trees have been damaged. I love trees and hate when trees are damaged, so screw you ice! Anyways, we be getting our Starcraft on hard style. So much SC. The sad thing is, it will take over my life for a few weeks and then dwindle, so much like a caffeine high, leaving me groggy and drained. Oh well, so goes gaming in general. This is a short post. Maybe later in the week I'll have more. Check out Scoreboard. Instead of posting when we are gonna play, I'm posting synopsi (plural of synopsis?) of games we have played. Drop one of us an IM or e-mail if'n you wanna play. End.

-Hey! Check it out! I revamped my site! I have an avatar and a banner and.... I must say, I think it looks a hell of a lot better. Before it looked like some 12 year-old kid was teaching himself HTML....now it looks like that kid got a little better. :( Anyways, The picture of the tree with a network port in my banner was done by Rocky a long long time ago. I stumbled upon it and realized what treasure it was. So props to you Rocko! Okay, well expect more work on the site. Heres a new post for YOU.

-Chemistry has become my equivalent of a creative writing class. Granted, I should be giving my FULL unadulterated attention to what my professor is saying, but I don't. So I've been thinking, which is never good and almost always dangerous. What have I been thinking about? Quite honestly, my girlfriend.....and games. Oh yes, I can hear you all now, "You chas, who cares about your girlfriend!" Fair enough, but how many of your girlfriends (or lack thereof) support your gaming? It's cool having a girlfriend that supports something you love, not to mention beat you at it. I'm ashamed really; she makes me look like a clown when we play Mario 3 or GTA 3. Hmmmmm...perhaps she's only good at games with a 3 in the title. I'll get back to you on that one.

-I read Erik's site, and even though he updates never, I learned quite a bit. Is it possible that this man is more lazy than our own Nick? The thought of it simply makes me want to pull my hair--(a link to something was gonna be here, but that page is gone now) out. Anyways, Eriks site makes me want to learn MORE. It's like tasting some fabulous dish and then stopping....because...you don't know why. I guess I just don't know where to start. I would feel bad asking Erik to take me on as his padawan, but I want to learn. This stuff is absolutely intriguing. I need to know what major deals with computer hardware the most, so I can do that.

-Ahhh, I'm very sorry, but this post is terribly scatterbrained. I'm listening to a chemistry lecture and writing. Hey! Ask Rocky what girl computers have. Its damn funny I assure you. Oh yes. You all are familiar with Jared eh? Well he's a bastard, one that has astonishing skill/luck at Starcraft. I mean he wiped the floor with ALL of us at the LAN this past weekend. But he will fall soon enough. Oh yes, he will fall. Check out SCOREBOARD to see when we have schedulded a Starcraft game, because Nick can play now. We'll be on the U.S. East server and most likely in the channel goog before the game for about 5 mintues. Ciao!

-This may come a some sort of suprise, but I couldn't care any less than I do about pressure and how it relates to pascals or atmospheres. Yes, I aknowledge (spelling?) SOME people need to know this, but not I. Unless I need to know how much pressure to apply to a D-pad or a keyboard, I don't care. Yet, the sad thing is, I will someday be judged on my grasp of a subject I'll never use. Why? Because society is inefficient. Yes, english is important. Yes, math is important. Yes, science is important. All are important in the more basic grade levels. But I won't use MOST of what I'm "learning" in CHEM 1314. It's like giving a character a knife when they have a gun that never runs out of ammo. Sure, I guess you could use it to destroy enemies but, it's not NESSESCARY. That is unless your name is Dante and that knife is a sword. But that's a different story alltogether. Ah yes! It's like some much latin spread over so little clarity.

-Mechassault makes me wish I had an "X-Bus." It has a controller that IS a cockpit. Granted it costs damn near 40 school childrens lunches....... but it comes with a cockpit! And a learning curve. And it's supposed to be McWicked diffucult. Thats right, I said McWicked. I mean come on, you have to do PRE-MISSION initializing and such. If you fail to eject before your mech burns your SAVED GAME is erased. Ingenious. Please, someone, give me and X-Box so I can play this game.

-I live on the fifth level[11.22.02-1:10pm]
-I live on level 5. Well, its' actually the fifth floor of a building but I consider it level five. You have to navigate, puke piles, nasty girls, jocks, cowboys, cleaning ladies, etc. It's like a video game. You get on my floor and its some sort of safe haven. Like the lake in the phantom forest (FF3). Drink from the cool refreshing water fountain. HP and MP RESTORED! Perhaps I'll even greet you with a tintcure when you arrive. That is, if you're not a bard.

-Is anyone else appalled at the lack of updating I do? Well it's do to the suprising lack of time and Everquest. I got the beta, it works, and I'm addicted. The battle system is definitely nothing special and the diffuculty of gaining levels past 6 is ludacris. Yet, as Rocky so poigntly stated, "Deliciously ludacris." I would definitely never pay any money to play this game, but hey, it's free. And free just seems to be the right price for this game. My thanks to Joe Walker who gave me little tidbits of info on the game. He's a guru people. A horribly intimidating guru. How I fear his name.

-On a seperate note. Space and time are gay. This is an indisputable fact. Ask Rocky. After all, he and I thought up the whole theory. One word: black holes. Sayonara.

-Arrival[11.14.02-11:35pm]
-It's here. And I got a network adapter. Sadly, I cannot play becuase I need a longer network cable. I'll get one tomorrow, but I'm also going home tomorrow. So I won't get to play until atleast Sunday night. Anyways, new Harry Potter tomorrow. I want to give a personal "shout out" to Ian M. Shahan Esq. who so valiantly signed my guestbook. Thanks Ian, I really appreciate it. Ok hope everyone has a good next couple of days. Give me a call. Peace.

-It's A TERRA-ific day[11.14.02-3:00pm]
-This is an update. It's an update after I havn't updated in awhile. Why? Because school has been quite busy. So I hate Chemistry. I didn't even HAVE to take chemistry and I just found that out. Otherwise, Joe gave me a version of Metroid Fusion with sound. The sound isn't bad, it's nothing near the soundtrack for Super Metroid, but it's not bad. Also, I've been playing original Zelda quite a bit lately and I'm quite ashamed of myself. I can't seem to find the second dungeon. I know it's sad and I shouldn't be allowed to call myself a gamer, but please have mercy, I'm only a boy.

-Fianl Fantasy 6 or 3, whichever you want to call it, has had the single most influence on my entire gaming career. When I play an RPG I compare it to FF3. I ask such questions as: "Does this game have characters that inspire such pity and depression like Celes does?" or "Where are the Espers?" or "Who here loves Hyrule?" Just kidding, I dont ask about Hyrule......you sillies. But I do do a lot of comparison, which is one reason I loved FF9 so much. It's got many FF3-like elements. Great music, dynamic characters, awesome battle system, and cool characters. Yet, FF3 is still supreme. How many of you almost spilt into two people when you were presented with the choice of saving Mog or the theif that would give you the gold hairpin? Oh yeah sure, you jackasses knew all along you could get a gold hairpin later, or that Mog would join you're party. Well I didn't the first time around, and I'm willing to bet you didn't either. I mean c'mon, it was 1994, I was 11 years old, actually I probably didnt get it until I was 12 or 13 so yeah anyway I was young, and so were you! Regardless, FF3 was my life then. I was up til 12 or so playing (that was late back then) and when I awoke around 9 I started playing all over again. I played ALL day a few times. I mean I woke up and played until I went to sleep, pausing only to do chores and eat and whatnot. It was that good. I hope each of you have had such awesome experiences. I'm sure you have. As Jared has said to me many times, "Josh, if I had to choose between saving my mom's life or getting that gold hairpin, I'd get the hairpin." FF3 has affected us all. We love you Final Fantasy 3.

-Thanks Joe[11.8.02-12:36pm]
-This'll be short, but what else is new? I must say thank you to Joe Walker for posting on the plug-in for winamp that lets you listen to super nintendo game soundtracks. What could be better than listening to FF3 music while doing homework or updating this page. Not a lot. Except perhaps Chai Tea. I tried real Chai at the coffee shop downstairs and I must say, WOW. Try it and see if you can help from saying wow. On another note, I didn't get to go visit Nick due to extenuating circumstaces. Next week. And on one further note, I have AC (Asheron's Call) and really didn't like it due to my old slow crappy computer/DIAL-UP, but I'd try it again.....if I had money.....sniff. What's the name of that town with the awesome music in FF3? Zolo? Something.

-Atari Kid[11.07.02-2:30]
-Apologies, I know I havn't updated in a bit so here it is. I think this site needs some revamping. I might work on that, no promises. Going to visit Nick at his school tonight I'm stoked. Ok well read this.

-It's all a whir and blur of colors, sounds, and tastes nowadays. I get older, time gets faster. Like father time isn't a father at all, but a cold cruel bitter old man who likes nothing more than to shorten peoples lives. "Whats that? You need some time to think? How about I make it utterly impossible? Would that help?" And you can't put this old man in a nursing home and forget about him hoping he'll just die. Oh no, this old man IS the fourth dimension. An integral part in E=MC squared. He's immeshed with space. Without space we couldn't be. But I'm just FINE.

-I was raised with video games too. I remember my first encounter with a video game was an Atari. I was at some kids house who's name I now do not know. He showed me his Atari and let me play it. I came over every day after that for at least a month and went straight to his TV set where the Atari was hooked up. I don't think that kid actually had a name, to me he was "the kid with the Atari". He could've been anyone really, as long as that Atari was there. I loved the little joystick. I could play with that for hours even if there was nothing on the screen, becasue in my mind something WAS on the screen. Anyways, I maintain to this day that the video game gods arranged such events accordingly. This was the spark and I the volatile combination of gasoline and imagination. There was such an explosion of expanding gas; never ceasing always expanding. Much like the universe, but much smaller. Gamers have one thing in common I think. Imagination. Not every gamer, just the ones that truly love it and are dedicated to it. Well now that I think about it it may not be imagination anymore. I think today many people are easily amused/entertained. In the begginning of gaming, when it wasn't cool to play 6 to 8 hours a day, when RPG's were branded nerdy, people had more imagination. Today's next generation of gamers have all the imagining done for them. This is an incredibly shaky and assumed statement that sterotypes all new gamers, when in fact I know very few new gamers or their imaginations. Well, the story about the begginning of my "gameness" was cool right?

-Nothing.[11.4.02-4:30]
-Well I had a pretty good weekend. I got to hang out with Nick for the first time in awhile. It felt like a good honest hang out, not bastardized as it had so recently been, so yea! Have you ever felt like your brain was filled with some sort of gel or other viscous substance? Well thats what I felt like earlier. Like every thought took extra energy just to progress. My remedy to this? Coffee. It's such a wonderful draught. Hot. Nutty. Caffeine laden. I love it. I really have nothing else to say. Not exactly in to most wordy mood.

-What?![11.01.02-1:00pm]
-I'm sorry for my earlier post on "The Rules of Attraction". Apparantly I got some people angry. Not my intent I assure you. Nick IMed me with a long paragraph why I was wrong and how it was actually a movie showing how F-ed up society is. I agree with that. I thought it did a good job at getting society somewhat accurate (It IS the movies.). My post was rather small and not indepth so please, don't assume I'm dumb or ignorant or uncapable understanding things just because I don't like them. It's an opinion. So what I'm saying is, I'm sorry if my views differ from your own. I think difference in opinion is a good thing. Ok so on a lighter note, I got a controller for my computer in which to play ROMs with. This has got to be much better, especially for those games like Mario and Metroid Fusion. That is if I can download the emulator and ROM before I leave for home today. Grrr, it better happen. More good news, I will be capable of playing Metroid Prime come the holidays. That's right, Gamecube for me. And for you.....that is if you know me and want to come over and play it. You're welcome to. Please do.

-Japan is grand.[10.31.02-4:15pm]
-I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday. I was busy with school and such. I did however get a chance to read the entire November issue of EGM. I must say it got me thinking. Japan is a wonderful place. The Olympus of the video gaming community. At it's peak sit companies like Squaresoft, Capcom, Sony, and Sega. Why do the Japanese dominate this community? I'll tell you why. Blue lasers. That's right, blue lasers. Researchers in Japan have constructed a commercially viable new way to store information. Because the color blue has smaller denser waves of energy, blue lasers can detect a much more precise area of data and therefore much more information can be stored on your every day CD, let alone DVD. No, thats not why they dominate. Its because they live on an island and actually have nothing better to do than to make video games. It's true.

-I just really started reading Joe Walkers site, and I must say, his writing and his HTML or CSS skills are very good, very very good. Thanks for the tips on Nintendo Music Joe. I hope Joe reads this. I hope more people besides Joe read this, but if not it's cool. Sign my guest book!

-I am at that pivotal stage in Kingdom Hearts, the end. I need to stay motivated. I also need a network adapter. Who knows where I can get a network adapter? What I really need is some sort of time stasis device. One I can enter with my fav video game and play until I can play no more, all the while outside the chamber NOTHING happens. It has to be in the future. Speaking of the future, the article in the Nov. issue of EGM about the future of gaming is retarded. It mentions smell-o-vision and controllers that read your brain waves. I'm not sure where this crap is coming from. Did they ask 5th graders what THEY thought an then mistakingly put their own name on it? Oh well, I think all video game mags do it. I think I remember back in the day (when Nintendo Power had been around for about 2 years) Nintendo Power ran a segment about the future of gaming and as I recall it was also pretty inaccurate. I'll try to dig it up. Oh yeah, it's Halloween.

-It's another tuesday.[10.29.02-10:15]
-Yep, it's Tuesday again. I'm not sure exactly how many Tuesdays I've lived through, but this sure feels like a Tuesday. Hmm Trent hasn't showered since Sunday, BEFORE the Incubus concert. I think a research student called and said he was studying fungus and wanted to if he could come by and swab Trent's body. Ok so I left Diablo 2 at home and I'm way pissed. Jared's been playing with a new found ferver and Nick has been trying desperately to get his to work. I do think however, that even if I get Diablo with me to OSU the damn network will restrict play or something. Isn't everyone but yourself stupid? I think so. Well I seem to be lacking in rhetorical talent today, so I'll quit. Check out "TRENT SAYS". It's actually stuff he says!

-I'm in![10.28.02-10:35]
-Lo! There is a God! In my darkest hour when all hope was dwindling came a voice, a pure sweet voice. "Josh! Josh! Be not afraid, I know I am beautiful but I come with great tidings! You are to be accepted to the everquest online beta testing! You shall buy a network adapter. So ordainst the Lord!" And I wept. And the I realized I don't have a network adapter......fly, fly to wal-mart!

-Sleep is fun, thats about it[10.28.02-9:38am]
I love sleep because I can't see when I'm asleep, unless I'm dreaming, and that's usually good, unless it's bad. Anyways, when I can't see I don't realize what a shitty place stillwater/OSU is. It's devoid of trees. It's devoid of character. It's devoid of anything close to fun. I'm jealous, extremely jealous of my friends who seem to be having such a good time at OU. Again, I still hate everyone. The people here also suck, they are all robots I swear. Sure, some look different and sound different, but they all are essentially the same. Half the people on my floor are concerned solely with hoes, bitches, and gettin their drink on. The other half I never see, either they are never here or they stay locked in their rooms, like me, bitching about how they hate school. Living at home would be way more fun than this. I know, its pretty bad. Back to the robots. I heard at least four of them all talking in some strange language which seemed to me to be mostly "tights!" and "F*@#s!" I tried to understand, and then my ears started to bleed, and I'm not sure thats a good thing even if it did mute the sound. Damn this 20/15 vision.

-I want them all[10.27.02-11:26am]
-Well, four games come out/are out that I want to buy this week. LOTR: The Two Towers, Red Faction 2, Tony Hawk 4, and GTA: Vice City. I'm also supposedly on the verge of owning a Gamecube. There is so little money. That is the mantra of almost every gamer I am sure. That is unless they are PC gamer exclusively, in which it is terribly easy to steal copies of games. Which is why I love PC games, they are so affordable. Ok so I need to set up some gaming priorties. I still need to finish Kingdom Hearts, so its probably not a good idea to buy anything else until I beat it. You've read how I get to the end and then give up. Hmmm but which game to purchase first? Trent will most likely say "Tony Hawk!" or GTA but I think I would enjoy LOTR or Red Faction better. Oh and what about the "cube"? If Mindy's dad does decide to sell it to me I'll be in the hole another $150. Satan assuredly has something to do with this. bah! Oh yeah. I'm at home.....with dial-up....and it is TEN TIMES faster than the connection at OSU. I hate everyone.

-This place is trying to kill me![10.25.02-2:00pm]
-I swear to you, OSU is trying to kill its students. First off, they put a cap in internet speed. Thats a load of crap. I payed for DSL speed connection and I am recieving something a bit faster than a good dial-up. If you want to help go there and sign. So while I was waiting for a GIF to upload to the server I went to shave. I turned the water faucet on the the persumably comfortable temperature half way between H and C. Ahh yes, the temperature was good. And then I screamed. The water must have decided it didn't like me and got super hot. So after I got burned the water returned to its normal soothing temperature and I procceded with shaving. The hot came back. I swear it's like playing F-ing russian roulette with your face. I promptly dropped to my knees and prayed and asked for forgivness. The water was nice again and I gave "the big man" a thumbs up. Well, to make a long story short the hot came back several times, I cursed, Satan laughed, my face/hands hurt. They must have built this dorm on an Indian burial groud or something.

-The blue bomber and his red friend.[10.25.02-12:30pm]
-No, I am not talking about zero, who is Mega Man's BEST friend. Actually I'm not sure how close they are. Zero has an energy sword....Mega man uses it in X5.....only friends borrow things. Unless he stole it. Then they aren't friends, which is ok because zero is dead, right? He is dead right? Actually I was thinking about Red Faction 2 today in math. I know Penny Arcade said buy Time Splitters 2 over Red Faction 2, because RF2 would give you leprosy but, I will defy the almighty gods of video game wit and probably purchase RF2. I CHALLENGE YOU NICK! I WILL DESTROY YOU ONCE AGAIN O' MASTER OF SHOOTERS! erhhh. Sorry. Anyways, since I do love Super Famicom, I was thinking about a great game most people have forgotten about. Donkey Kong Country. Does anyone else remeber how it revolitionized graphics on the Super? Not to mention how extremely fun it was. And who else here remembers that chip thing some games had? What was it called? Well it was cool... the Z chip? Ah yes, days long ago when video games were simpler and quite possibly more fun. With exceptions of course. Once again, Trent and I are cooking up someting special for yous guys here at OSU in our spare time. All I will say is "Viva la revolution!"

-Don't over art things [10.24.02-3:10]
-The movie "Rules of Attraction" is what I would call an over use of "artsy" style. Now don't get all pissy at me for that, let me explain. OK. I personally am getting sick of directors trying to make art loaded/psuedo-deep/emotional films. "American Beauty" was good. "Fight Club" was excellent. "Snatch" was good. Rules of Attraction, however, is overrated. Not overrated by critics but by so called deep people. It seems to me that this is exactly what is wrong with much of society. This movie seems to inspire those with no problems, no real problems, to go the extra mile and look for/imagine/create problems in order to make their own dull lives seem interesting and tragic. Somewhat of a middle class I want attention complex. This is art? This is taboo bullshit. You want art? Check out some Coleridge or John Donne. You want art? Read Tolkien or actually go outside and look at a tree. That's art. Well that's my opinion anyway.

-I'm a procrastinator[10.24.02-10:45]
-Yes, its true, I am a official procrastinator. I don't even like saying the word. I'm not lazy per say, I just don't want to do things until I have to, and by have to I mean like 15 minutes before the deadline. Take my gaming habits for example. I get an RPG. I play it like a madman at first and then when I near the end I say "I'll beat it later." I did this with FF8. Granted this is possibly the most likely canidate for the "red-headed step child" of Final Fantasy games, I still mostly enjoyed it. Ok so maybe I'm not a ........ (I'll type it later) I think I must have a fear of finishing things. I don't want them to be over. Seriously. If you are having the time of your life, you don't want it to be over, yet you always somehow return to that pre-timeofyourlife state where everything is normal. I guess I could have killed myself just before beating Kefka (main boss FF3), but then no FF7!? It's all very confusing. I guess I'm saying "Don't kill yourself unless you know it absolutely can get no better." Words of wisdom I am sure.

-Fight it OUT[10.23.02-7:08pm]
-Hey I put the time and date down!!! Anyways, I have had an on and off love affair with Ogre Battle for some years now. I do believe the affair started around seventh or eighth grade, when Super Nintendo was in it's waning years. When I told Nick about this lovely RPG/SIM game he eloquently responded with "Orgy Battle!?!?! They named a game that!? Hahahaha!", and futhermore my attempts to turn him on to this game were thwarted when he decided that the fact that the game spouted "Fight it Out!" when you met with an opponent was too much to bear. Oh, and you can't really control the characters. Back in the day that was quite a shock, but I saw the battle system for all of it's beauty. The system works like this: the player has units, consisting of 1 to 5 "small" characters or 1 "small" character and 2 "large" or 3 "small" and 1 "large" character. Work it out in your head. Anyways you can arrange these characters on a 3x2 2-D grid and each character will have a certin kind/number of attacks relative to their positioning. Some characters are better in the front, some in the back, and OH! the game progresses in real time! Perhaps, one of the first Super games to do so. Well it also turns out that some characters (the evil ones) fight better at night than at daytime. On the character note, I forgot to say that what first got me into this game was the sheer number of characters. There is upwards of 30 different character types in this game. The system on characters works much like the job system in FF6. You start off as basic characters and due to experience and ali. (evil/goodness) you change into more powerful characters. But back to the battle system. You move these units via a cursor to various point on an over-map, the point being to liberate towns and destroy the level's boss. It's not as easy as it sounds, as the boss of each stage has his (or hers) own minions to pit against your own. When your units meet with enemy units the game exclaims "FIGHT IT OUT!", much to Nick's mirth, and you are taken to a battle screen. This is the part that turns many people off. You don't actually control your fighters in the battle. They fight as you arranged them and attack accordingly. The winner is determined not by who wipes out who, which was (and still is?) new, but who inflicts the most damage on the other. Theres much more, I've only scraped the surface, but I'm hungry and require sustinance. Give this game a shot, it's excellent, but bring your patience because without it you'll go insane. I think I spent 2 hours on a single stage once, perhaps longer! Anyways, e-mail or IM me if you need pointers or whatever. I don't expect you to, but it's worth saying. End Transmission.

-Hi, I'm Josh. This is my page. My page is all raw html so bear with me. I was thinking, I want to start a page that will list time/game/results of online games I play with my good buddy Nick. Of course, if the game permits, anyone who cathes all the info is welcome to join us. This page will be called Scoreboard. I promise that I'll post updates honestly..